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tagboard On Friday, June 22, 2012 at 4:42 AM Fiction & Fact ♥ 
I just realized that yesterday is June 21st and it means that BtoB had showcase in Jakarta. Omg omg omg ! How can I forget ?! I just check tumblr and I saw that they came to Dahsyat *dafuq ?! Gyahh, I don't want to see anymore. Omg omg omg ! How can they came to dahsyat ? Seriously ?! And I didn't even watch it ! Gyahh (۳˚Д˚)۳
face the truth
On Monday, May 21, 2012 at 8:58 PM Fiction & Fact ♥
*speechless*
*die in shame*
*kill me right now*
you will always win ! they will always win !
you will always know everything !
secret, weakness, feeling. everything !
after all, it haven't finish. the truth keep coming out, one by one, everyweek.
im onmyway but i ALWAYS stuck. again and again.
arrgghh ! F with the truth !
anyway, r.i.p twinkle :'( i'll be alone if no one at home :(
my heart broke when i saw her just sleeping in a box.
she just slept and her eyes won't open anymore
there won't be a noisy barking voice when i go home :(
twinkle :'( HIKS !
*die in shame*
*kill me right now*
you will always win ! they will always win !
you will always know everything !
secret, weakness, feeling. everything !
after all, it haven't finish. the truth keep coming out, one by one, everyweek.
im onmyway but i ALWAYS stuck. again and again.
arrgghh ! F with the truth !
anyway, r.i.p twinkle :'( i'll be alone if no one at home :(
my heart broke when i saw her just sleeping in a box.
she just slept and her eyes won't open anymore
there won't be a noisy barking voice when i go home :(
twinkle :'( HIKS !
Labels: goodbye, hate, problems, random, sadness
Stfu !
On Wednesday, May 2, 2012 at 5:10 PM Fiction & Fact ♥
I wish I can punch your face with every strength I have !
Your fuckin damn annoying face
I don't know again how to describe this hatred feeling
Even the worst words won't be able to describe how much I hate you !
such a bad habbit
On Wednesday, March 21, 2012 at 12:04 AM Fiction & Fact ♥
i guess, i'll hate 2012 ! why ? i'm totally defeated in this early year. defeated by what ? ahh, many lah. seriously, its not about galau or love"an. cihh, die that love"an ! hmm, i don't know why, i can't control my emotion these days. i felt like everything or everybody around me is annoying. eventhough they did nothing, i just felt like ergghh ! in that case, it will be great if i can throw something. huh, hands wanna grap something lah =="
you know, life is about "what we do thats what we will get" several days ago, someone made me realize about php. i suddenly thought, i guess, i was a php too. last year i guess. sigh, i still wanna throw a flower pot lah to his face. i know that hold on a grudge is not good but thats me. i always like that since when ya ? i already forget lah. you know, i try to stop that grudge thing but its kinda hard ya if we see them everyday and everytime. grr ! where is flower pot ?!
you know, life is about "what we do thats what we will get" several days ago, someone made me realize about php. i suddenly thought, i guess, i was a php too. last year i guess. sigh, i still wanna throw a flower pot lah to his face. i know that hold on a grudge is not good but thats me. i always like that since when ya ? i already forget lah. you know, i try to stop that grudge thing but its kinda hard ya if we see them everyday and everytime. grr ! where is flower pot ?!
Labels: bad habbit, flower pot, hate, php, problems, random
am I that hopeless ?
On Saturday, November 12, 2011 at 8:45 PM Fiction & Fact ♥
yesterday was 11.11.11, well, nothing special happened. i guess, i couldn't expected much from that date.
actually, i felt that yesterday was my super damn day.
why ?
my mood was really terrible and that's made me more sensitive than usual.
what's wrong with me ?
btw, i'm not expecting for someone will purpose to me or whatever.
i just want, in that day, something good will come to me and make my day.
but, reality was different. nothing special happened ! well, i can't give to much hope for that kind of things.
hmm, another "sad"satnight. it just the same old things. single or taken, it's the same for me. i never have my satnight. eventhough, i GOT boyfriend, yaa, you know what. no satnight at all ! i can accept it but i can't lie to myself that i really want to feel that satnight with someone i love. so frustrating !
love is so complicated right ?
single or taken, everything about love is so damn complicated
why it has to be so complicated ? can't it be a simple one ?
actually, i felt that yesterday was my super damn day.
why ?
my mood was really terrible and that's made me more sensitive than usual.
what's wrong with me ?
btw, i'm not expecting for someone will purpose to me or whatever.
i just want, in that day, something good will come to me and make my day.
but, reality was different. nothing special happened ! well, i can't give to much hope for that kind of things.
hmm, another "sad"satnight. it just the same old things. single or taken, it's the same for me. i never have my satnight. eventhough, i GOT boyfriend, yaa, you know what. no satnight at all ! i can accept it but i can't lie to myself that i really want to feel that satnight with someone i love. so frustrating !
love is so complicated right ?
single or taken, everything about love is so damn complicated
why it has to be so complicated ? can't it be a simple one ?
Labels: bete, hate, LOVE ♥, problems, random, sadness
I hate what I heard !
On Friday, November 4, 2011 at 6:25 PM Fiction & Fact ♥
I learned something today ! what ?
DON'T GO TO SOMEONE WHO KNOWS ABOUT THE FUTURE !
OR SOMEONE WHO HAS THE ABILITY TO PREDICT !
don't ask about your life or love life
because when you get the answers and that is not what you want to hear
well, it's kinda mess up your mind !
you will lose your hope in everything you thought that it can be the good answer or the answer you want to hear
Like what I did today. i asked one of my teachers about my personality and love life. grr ! she said that i avengeful and egoistic. HAHAHA ! thats right i think.
when it comes to my love life, she said what i don't want to hear ! arrgghh ! in an instant, it removes all my good expectations !
from that moment, i spend my time with think and think and think ! ergghh !
I WON'T ASK FORTUNE TELLER OR WHATEVER IT CALLED !
i write my own story and i will going through what i've write !
positive thinking = positive result
Quote
Don't ruin the present by knowing your future
DON'T GO TO SOMEONE WHO KNOWS ABOUT THE FUTURE !
OR SOMEONE WHO HAS THE ABILITY TO PREDICT !
don't ask about your life or love life
because when you get the answers and that is not what you want to hear
well, it's kinda mess up your mind !
you will lose your hope in everything you thought that it can be the good answer or the answer you want to hear
Like what I did today. i asked one of my teachers about my personality and love life. grr ! she said that i avengeful and egoistic. HAHAHA ! thats right i think.
when it comes to my love life, she said what i don't want to hear ! arrgghh ! in an instant, it removes all my good expectations !
from that moment, i spend my time with think and think and think ! ergghh !
I WON'T ASK FORTUNE TELLER OR WHATEVER IT CALLED !
i write my own story and i will going through what i've write !
positive thinking = positive result
Quote
Don't ruin the present by knowing your future
Labels: hate, hopeless, LOVE ♥, school
fireworks ! x_x
On Thursday, October 20, 2011 at 10:48 AM Fiction & Fact ♥
my raport like a fireworks ! hahaha, swt abis ini raport. kepo pake ada raport bayangan segala, ktahuan dah nilai smua. coba raport lgsg yg uda dijumlahin smua, kn hasilnya jg mendingan lah. ckck, suram". mid akun gw sih angka keramat bgt loh, woghh !
untung aje yee si papi yang ambilin, ckck. acara kabur"an gw dibuka smua sama si miss. klo ktahuan si oma sih bisa digantung gw. papi ngeliat nilai akun merah malah ngmg "tuh kan, ambil ipa aja. psti gaada tuh akun merah segala." hahah, gw masuk ipa, kimia bio fisika mat gw gmna ?! halahh". suram" =_= dah lah yaa, gw mulai panik dengan raport bayangan, mau guling" rasanya (۳˚Д˚)۳ *lebay*
Labels: bete, hate, keki, school
Retreat ♥ \(‾▽‾)/
On Saturday, October 1, 2011 at 9:37 PM Fiction & Fact ♥
just arrived at home 2 hours ago and now i'm alone at home ! what a life -_- retreat done !
ihiyy ! awalnya malesin bgt tapi pas uda dijalanin, not bad juga. yang
malesin paling cuma session" acaranya. bosen gila dengerin ceramah, ga
ngerti wehh =_= diluar itu, semuanya nyenengin ! \(‾▽‾)/ jadi ga
kepengen pulang pas detik" terakhir
maen ayunan sempit"an trus kenceng" smpe ayunan ny uda gerak" mau
mental, dikerjain abis"an pas naek jungkat jungkit *sial yang pada
ngerjain gw, groarr ! wkakak, ada sesi nembak" si melissa surya sama
tupai febri. wkaka, heboh bgt 1 angkatan, ngakak" ! api unggun, roti bakar, dduk
di bawah pohon sambil sakit maag, ngeliatin yg pda couple. asik ya, haha
!! tapi yang pas mulai dari sore itu uda seru" bgt. huahaha ! meskipun
malemnya ada sedikit kejadian. well, im glad that my friends beside me
that time :') heheh, mandi jem 12 malem abis itu maen baru tidur. biar
cuma tdur 4jem'an, gw masih bisa ngimpi. well, gw bngung asli sama itu
mimpi ==" anting pake ilang sgala lg, dah lah, anggep buang sial
besoknya
games ! lalala ! untung aje licia bawa catokan, klo engga, gw gatau
gmna poni gw stelah maen cebur"an. kaki masih sakit klo napak gara"
nyebur ke kolam ==
overall,
i enjoyed every seconds in there \(‾▿‾\)┌(_O_)┐ (/‾▿‾)/ thanks yg uda
pda ngerjain gw, bikin gw ketawa ngakak, bikin gw treak". paling engga,
gw jadi sedikit lupa sama yg namanya galau, haha. ng'galau disitu sih
suasana ny mndukung bgt, aplg malem" dibawah pohon. behh !
pkknya,
retreat kali ini sesuatu bangettttt ! wkwkwk *sry deh ya kalo lebay,
haha !
anyway,
today is the first day of October ! bye September ! you've been a nice
month for me :) i was satisfied with everything :) :)
#octoberwish
i
wish nothing ! all i want is just happiness. going through the day with
laugh at school, home and everywhere.
no sadness ! no tears ! no heartbreak ! less problems ! bless my UTS also !
no sadness ! no tears ! no heartbreak ! less problems ! bless my UTS also !
Godblessme and everyone who deserve it ! amin ! (‾ʃƪ‾)
Labels: #wish, envy, good things, HAPPY ♥, happy day ♥, hate, memories for us, problems, RETREAT, sadness, school, stupid silly dummy ==, teman-teman yg tak tersebut
d.a.m.n
On Wednesday, September 7, 2011 at 10:16 PM Fiction & Fact ♥
hmm, i deleted my last post. why ? i don't know. since first, i already don't want to published it but myself told me to published it. well, the next day, i felt like i have to deleted that post. hihihi, i feel much better after deleting it :'D
aaaaa, today is the last day of my holiday. hikss, wanna cry a lot ! kenapa liburnya ga sampe hari senen aje si ? duhh, mana uda ga boleh bolos lagi :'( :'( sakit mendadak dong ato apa kek gtu yang bikin gw ga masuk sekolah besok. haishh, i'm not ready for school ! seriously ! gabisa tidur pagi lagi, gabisa bangun siang lagi, gabisa bebas lagi. tapi yahh itu kewajiban, mau gimana lagi ?
yesterday, i went to salon with ence ! hahayy ! gw potong poni dan .................. jadinya aneh. mau nangis gw. mestinya gw potong rata aje noh, bodo amat dahh mau kayak jamur ato engga. duhh, poni cepetan panjang dongss. rambut juga cepetan panjang dong. bingung gw, padahal dulu panjang nya cepet, kenapa sekarang jadi lama bgt ya ? orang" mah uda pada panjang rambutnya, gw masih sebahu lebih dikit terus =_=
duhh, sudahlah, besok mau gamau mesti masuk. Godblessmetomorrow, amin (‾ʃƪ‾)
aaaaa, today is the last day of my holiday. hikss, wanna cry a lot ! kenapa liburnya ga sampe hari senen aje si ? duhh, mana uda ga boleh bolos lagi :'( :'( sakit mendadak dong ato apa kek gtu yang bikin gw ga masuk sekolah besok. haishh, i'm not ready for school ! seriously ! gabisa tidur pagi lagi, gabisa bangun siang lagi, gabisa bebas lagi. tapi yahh itu kewajiban, mau gimana lagi ?
yesterday, i went to salon with ence ! hahayy ! gw potong poni dan .................. jadinya aneh. mau nangis gw. mestinya gw potong rata aje noh, bodo amat dahh mau kayak jamur ato engga. duhh, poni cepetan panjang dongss. rambut juga cepetan panjang dong. bingung gw, padahal dulu panjang nya cepet, kenapa sekarang jadi lama bgt ya ? orang" mah uda pada panjang rambutnya, gw masih sebahu lebih dikit terus =_=
duhh, sudahlah, besok mau gamau mesti masuk. Godblessmetomorrow, amin (‾ʃƪ‾)
Labels: bete, hate, hopeless, keki, sadness, school
which better ?
On Monday, September 5, 2011 at 2:20 AM Fiction & Fact ♥
yeyy, forget my last post ! why ? because, mtv world stage ada siaran ulangnya ! gyahaha ! oke lupakan
huaa, sepi lagi rumah gw. no more laughing, no more fighting, no more yelling. it's just so quiet. sometimes, i like to be alone. no disturbers or else. but i like it better when suddenly, my house become noisy again like long time ago. so, which better ? well, i guess, it can't be helped :/ i must strong enough to through everything. past is past, it can't be changed.
my bro si vincent yang kepo itu, yang suka ngeliatin orang maen, yang suka bacain chat orang, yang suka liatin hp orang, yang suka ceng"in + ngeledek gw juga. grr ! dasar kau penghianat desa ! kalo uda tau segala macem yahh diem aje, gausa tereak". bikin malu == emang bocah selalu gabisa diem, ckck. tapi yahh tetep aje dia yang paling baik, hihiyy \☺/
school will start several days again. AAAAAAA ! i'm not ready for it. test again, homework again, meet the teacher again, sit down for 7 hours again. huaaa ! wanna back to the first day of holiday. ckck, when holiday i wanna school. when school days i wanna holiday. human never satisfied, right ?
jadwal tidur makin parah, jem segini aje belom tidur. that's why, knapa klo uda kelar ol, gw males buat ol lagi. yahh, gara" ntar kebablasan kyk sekarang ini. ga ngantuk" jadinya, ckck. gimana ntar pas masuk sekolah ? yahh, gampanglah. palingan tidur dikelas (y) wkaka
huaa, sepi lagi rumah gw. no more laughing, no more fighting, no more yelling. it's just so quiet. sometimes, i like to be alone. no disturbers or else. but i like it better when suddenly, my house become noisy again like long time ago. so, which better ? well, i guess, it can't be helped :/ i must strong enough to through everything. past is past, it can't be changed.
my bro si vincent yang kepo itu, yang suka ngeliatin orang maen, yang suka bacain chat orang, yang suka liatin hp orang, yang suka ceng"in + ngeledek gw juga. grr ! dasar kau penghianat desa ! kalo uda tau segala macem yahh diem aje, gausa tereak". bikin malu == emang bocah selalu gabisa diem, ckck. tapi yahh tetep aje dia yang paling baik, hihiyy \☺/
school will start several days again. AAAAAAA ! i'm not ready for it. test again, homework again, meet the teacher again, sit down for 7 hours again. huaaa ! wanna back to the first day of holiday. ckck, when holiday i wanna school. when school days i wanna holiday. human never satisfied, right ?
jadwal tidur makin parah, jem segini aje belom tidur. that's why, knapa klo uda kelar ol, gw males buat ol lagi. yahh, gara" ntar kebablasan kyk sekarang ini. ga ngantuk" jadinya, ckck. gimana ntar pas masuk sekolah ? yahh, gampanglah. palingan tidur dikelas (y) wkaka
Labels: embarrassed, hate, problems, sadness, school, Vincent
On Monday, August 1, 2011 at 3:06 PM Fiction & Fact ♥
first day of august. time turns so fast, hmm. feels like yesterday still february -_- hahaha.
#augustwish
be blessed in everything, feels comfortable with my new class, stay close with my besties even though we're not in the same class again, more patience ! longlasting relationship ! less problems, less fight, less short conversation, no changeable mood again. all I want is better than last month !!!
Amin !! (‾ʃƪ‾)
errr, last month is kinda ....... *ahh, i don't know what to say*
hmm, i don't want to remember July. too much galau, too much sad, too much changeable mood *my friends knew it :')*
Quote of the day
People change & things go wrong, but always remember Life goes on
goodbye July ! i don't want to remember you !
welcome august ! please be nice to me :) :)
#augustwish
be blessed in everything, feels comfortable with my new class, stay close with my besties even though we're not in the same class again, more patience ! longlasting relationship ! less problems, less fight, less short conversation, no changeable mood again. all I want is better than last month !!!
Amin !! (‾ʃƪ‾)
errr, last month is kinda ....... *ahh, i don't know what to say*
hmm, i don't want to remember July. too much galau, too much sad, too much changeable mood *my friends knew it :')*
Quote of the day
People change & things go wrong, but always remember Life goes on
goodbye July ! i don't want to remember you !
welcome august ! please be nice to me :) :)
Labels: #wish, hate, LOVE ♥, love quote, problems, random, sadness, school
life, laugh and .........
On Sunday, July 3, 2011 at 11:02 PM Fiction & Fact ♥
i got from someone's blog. errr, but several things DOESN'T MATCH with me. hahaha ! also i still have so much 'best things' with my own way :) :)
hmm, this is a doll or pillow ? ahh, i don't know. maybe doll but looks like a pillow -_-" i already 2nd senior highschool but i still like this kind of thing. ahahaha ! yaa, i still like dolls BUT i hate animal dolls except teddy bear or cartoon characters. my auntie bought me *thanks tante, hoho* my cousin also have so this's kind of twin things, yeyy ! ƪ(˘▽˘)ʃ
no lying, i envy with my elementary school's friend. aaaa ! she watched beast in singapore. groarr ! *gigit kuku* kapan yaa beast dateng kesini ? hdehh, i wanna watch them so bad ! yoseob & dongwoon, ulalala ƪ(♥ε♥)ʃ they held a concert in malaysia too. errr, masa indo kaga si ? ahh, pkknya msti ntn lahh klo mereka konser disini. gamau tau, HAHAHA. i'm kinda freak yaa ? whatever ~
i'm feeling weird. is it because i'm always alone all this time ? gw jadi ga terbiasa denger bacotan ny ade gw. hmm, trutama sma yg kecil. it feels like there's a space between the 3 of us. i'm afraid that i won't be their usual sister they ever known, i've changed a lot. is it because of my mood or my personality change over time ? hmm, maybe our surroundings are different. i'm in here & they're in there. we meet only a few months, when holiday come. right now, i'm feeling so bad. what kind a sister i am ? :(
no lying, i envy with my elementary school's friend. aaaa ! she watched beast in singapore. groarr ! *gigit kuku* kapan yaa beast dateng kesini ? hdehh, i wanna watch them so bad ! yoseob & dongwoon, ulalala ƪ(♥ε♥)ʃ they held a concert in malaysia too. errr, masa indo kaga si ? ahh, pkknya msti ntn lahh klo mereka konser disini. gamau tau, HAHAHA. i'm kinda freak yaa ? whatever ~
i'm feeling weird. is it because i'm always alone all this time ? gw jadi ga terbiasa denger bacotan ny ade gw. hmm, trutama sma yg kecil. it feels like there's a space between the 3 of us. i'm afraid that i won't be their usual sister they ever known, i've changed a lot. is it because of my mood or my personality change over time ? hmm, maybe our surroundings are different. i'm in here & they're in there. we meet only a few months, when holiday come. right now, i'm feeling so bad. what kind a sister i am ? :(
Labels: beast, envy, family, good things, hate, hidden message, hopeless, LOVE ♥, problems, random, sadness, teman" yg tak tersebut
