E L L I E ♥

from the beginning

On Tuesday, September 13, 2022 at 4:00 AM Fiction & Fact ♥

Well, kemaren gw baca blog ny daguu. Ukhh, jadi keinget pas masa” baru masuk kls 10. bahagia karena sekelas sma org” yg gw kenal tpi pisah sma tmen” gw di 9c. Mos & Ldk yg sgt mnyusahkan tpi yahh seru jg si. Digodain tiap hari ==”. Foto” norak rame” klo sempet wktu. Masa”nya gw bosen bgt bgt sama idup gw. Masuk MD tapi kluar lagi gara” sesuatu. Ngeliat org yg gw suka dmen sma tmen gw sndiri. Sampe ada kambing ngajak gw chat cuma buat nyuruh buka web setan. Pret ! wkaka. Yahh, paling engga, idup gw uda mule mnyenangkan lah mulai dri situ. Aw aw ;) Disensiin sma temen sndiri gara” gw dket sma gebetan ny. Serba salah gw. pel komp slalu buat maenan game" serem, kocak dah. wkaka. Berlanjut lagi smpe kemur cup. Ntn in yg pada tanding smpe emosi trus keki gara” gabisa dteng ntn futsal pas hari minggu *gilaa, inget bgt gua* Geregetan sma kue jahe ntah knapa. Wkwkw. Diem”an sma org gara” kata ciee == Ulum gw terdampar di ruang 1 sndirian, hikss, suram aslii :( Nyontek jdi mkanan sehari” *prah asli. Bkin suprise party buat tetep, robin, dagu. Ultah gw yg biasa ajee. Ng’galau tiap hari smpe bkin nama samaran brengan sma si dagu. Ahaii ♥ keep texting with that “monkey & goat” selalu seneng klo ada kejadian. Wohoo ! :o mau gila klo inget tanggal 15 des & 15 sesudahnya x_x berkenalan dengan that silly” sky == ckck. Go to cafstro with others & dibkinin rencana super anehh tapi akhirnya nyenengin juga si. aw aw, ehem :$ Uyee ! then gw yg slalu takut klo mau turun ke kantin & tmbah pngen mampus klo uda mau pulang. Byk kejadian tak terduga, ckck. Di smperin pas istirahat ato kpanpun & demi apapun gw pngen nangis gara” takut diliat jamur. dikasih blablabla & sgla mcm kata” aneh. Until he knows that i like juno ! hahaha. Tpi ttep ajee ga nyerah smpe gw tolak bner”. msn’an tiap hri sma jamur sorban trus ditanyain mlo “juno spe si ?” behh, trus anak kls 3 nyariin juno == kampretlatos tuhh kepoo ! dahh ahh, kyk ny uda kepanjangan.

Hikss, 2 bulan lagi bakalan kls 11. hikss, psti suasana kelas ny bkal beda bgt dehh. Beradaptasi lagi sma anak” dri kls laen. Yang gw takutin sih bukan itu tapi ada lahh pkk ny. Hikss ! mau gilaa klo inget”. Aaaaa, pengen puter waktu ke awal kls 10 lg dehh. I need doraemonn ! :(

sbenernya sih msih byk kejadian tapi yahh mau smpe berapa post baru kelar. wkaka, dahh lahh. kejadian" dri awal masuk kn slalu gw tulis di diary jdi yahh klo mau baca tinggal buka dehh. ahaha, ga sia" gw nulis. ahayy ƪ(˘▽˘)┐ ƪ(˘▽˘)ʃ ┌(˘▽˘)ʃ

---> hidup contekann =="

Labels: "sin", cafstro, HAPPY ♥, hopeless, insiden ciee *what ?, jamur sorban :), juno, LOVE ♥, memories for us, MOS, photo, problems, sadness, school, surprise party, teman" yg tak tersebut, tgl keramat

Sunday story

On at 3:57 AM Fiction & Fact ♥

telat ng'post tapi bodo amat dahh == wkwk, jadinya jumat kmaren, kls 10a fieldtrip. yuhuu ! tadinya mau kamis tapi diganti, baguslahh. HAHAHA ! awalnya biasa ajee karena saya kacang"an sma si juno. why ? karena dy nyuruh gw buat nyapa dloan trus gw ga sapa", akhirnya gw dikacangin dehh smpe gw nyapa pas di museum wayang. kasian bner, hikss :'( tapi tak apelahh, abis itu uda kembali kyk semula lagi. uyeee ! ♥ :D byklah kejadian pas fieldtrip kmaren. yahh intinya menyenangkan meskipun poni lepek" gaje gtu, errgghh ==" kok gw ga ktemu pnampakan yaa pas di museum fatahilah ? pdahal uda pda ngebet bgt nohh, wkaka. kecewa" ! dahh lahh, tapi intinya saya senang hari itu meskipun awalnya jadi tukang kacang & nyesel knapa ga nyapa lebih awal. hahaha today my mood was up and down. i don't know why too. hmm, gw klaenan ato sakit jiwa si ?! astagaa. ntar seneng trus bisa ketawa", tiba" stengah jem kmudian gw bisa bte" trus lgsg psang tmpang senga. gatau kenapa tpi hati gw kyk ny dongkol keki gitulahh. bngung gw jelasinnya juga. aaaaaa, gw pengen tindik dehh tapi takut :$ cupacupss lahh. wkwk, uda diijinin sma si papi malah ga berani. dulunya sih dikasih tapi pke embel". apaan coba, masa gw tindik, si papi juga mau ikutan ? gahol amat tuh org. aduhh, itu org emang slalu ng'lawak dehh. ada aje yg bisa dibkin ketawa, mskpun sering gw yg kena buat jdi bahan ktwaan ny. ahh, ilovemydaddysomuchh ♥

Labels: bete, HAPPY ♥, happy day ♥, Jonathanderson ♥, juno, keki, LOVE ♥, memories for us, photo, school

Recognation

On Sunday, October 5, 2014 at 9:17 PM Fiction & Fact ♥

" Sometimes when you meet someone, there's a click. I don't believe in love at first sight but I believe in that click "

- Ann Aguirre

Labels: LOVE ♥, love quote

I's

On Friday, March 28, 2014 at 6:56 PM Fiction & Fact ♥

"You are my first love,

I promise to always make you happy and I will always be beside you when you'are sad, happy & whatever it is

I will give my best to you

I love you so much dear"

He's the sweetest man on earth, isn't he ?

❤️

Labels: life, LOVE ♥

1703

On Wednesday, March 19, 2014 at 11:49 PM Fiction & Fact ♥

This might be random but yeah

F.I.N.A.L.L.Y !

It's official ❤️

Labels: life, LOVE ♥

Just look how far you've come

On Sunday, January 5, 2014 at 9:30 PM Fiction & Fact ♥

I might be writing this kind of letter 2 years ago while I haven't move on

But now, when I see this kind of picture, well ! I wanna laugh so hard hahaha

This is fuckin annoying like seriously, this is so lovey dovey girl who can't move on

Well, I might be like that several years ago but hey !

I'm done now and I've passed all those stupid fuckin time !

Yuhuuu ! Hello new ones ;)

♥

Labels: good things, life, LOVE ♥

♥♥♥♥♥

On Monday, December 26, 2011 at 2:09 PM Fiction & Fact ♥

A Thousand Years

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Labels: LOVE ♥, random, songs

am I that hopeless ?

On Saturday, November 12, 2011 at 8:45 PM Fiction & Fact ♥

yesterday was 11.11.11, well, nothing special happened. i guess, i couldn't expected much from that date.
actually, i felt that yesterday was my super damn day.
why ?
my mood was really terrible and that's made me more sensitive than usual.
what's wrong with me ?
btw, i'm not expecting for someone will purpose to me or whatever.
i just want, in that day, something good will come to me and make my day.
but, reality was different. nothing special happened ! well, i can't give to much hope for that kind of things.

hmm, another "sad"satnight. it just the same old things. single or taken, it's the same for me. i never have my satnight. eventhough, i GOT boyfriend, yaa, you know what. no satnight at all ! i can accept it but i can't lie to myself that i really want to feel that satnight with someone i love. so frustrating !

love is so complicated right ?
single or taken, everything about love is so damn complicated
why it has to be so complicated ? can't it be a simple one ?

Labels: bete, hate, LOVE ♥, problems, random, sadness

I hate what I heard !

On Friday, November 4, 2011 at 6:25 PM Fiction & Fact ♥

I learned something today ! what ?
DON'T GO TO SOMEONE WHO KNOWS ABOUT THE FUTURE !
OR SOMEONE WHO HAS THE ABILITY TO PREDICT !
don't ask about your life or love life
because when you get the answers and that is not what you want to hear
well, it's kinda mess up your mind !
you will lose your hope in everything you thought that it can be the good answer or the answer you want to hear

Like what I did today. i asked one of my teachers about my personality and love life. grr ! she said that i avengeful and egoistic. HAHAHA ! thats right i think.
when it comes to my love life, she said what i don't want to hear ! arrgghh ! in an instant, it removes all my good expectations !
from that moment, i spend my time with think and think and think ! ergghh !

I WON'T ASK FORTUNE TELLER OR WHATEVER IT CALLED !
i write my own story and i will going through what i've write !
positive thinking = positive result

Quote
Don't ruin the present by knowing your future

Labels: hate, hopeless, LOVE ♥, school

On Monday, August 1, 2011 at 3:06 PM Fiction & Fact ♥

first day of august. time turns so fast, hmm. feels like yesterday still february -_- hahaha.

#augustwish
be blessed in everything, feels comfortable with my new class, stay close with my besties even though we're not in the same class again, more patience ! longlasting relationship ! less problems, less fight, less short conversation, no changeable mood again. all I want is better than last month !!!
Amin !! (‾ʃƪ‾)
errr, last month is kinda ....... *ahh, i don't know what to say*

hmm, i don't want to remember July. too much galau, too much sad, too much changeable mood *my friends knew it :')*

Quote of the day
People change & things go wrong, but always remember Life goes on

goodbye July ! i don't want to remember you !
welcome august ! please be nice to me :) :)

Labels: #wish, hate, LOVE ♥, love quote, problems, random, sadness, school

life, laugh and .........

On Sunday, July 3, 2011 at 11:02 PM Fiction & Fact ♥

i got from someone's blog. errr, but several things DOESN'T MATCH with me. hahaha ! also i still have so much 'best things' with my own way :) :)

hmm, this is a doll or pillow ? ahh, i don't know. maybe doll but looks like a pillow -_-" i already 2nd senior highschool but i still like this kind of thing. ahahaha ! yaa, i still like dolls BUT i hate animal dolls except teddy bear or cartoon characters. my auntie bought me *thanks tante, hoho* my cousin also have so this's kind of twin things, yeyy ! ƪ(˘▽˘)ʃ

no lying, i envy with my elementary school's friend. aaaa ! she watched beast in singapore. groarr ! *gigit kuku* kapan yaa beast dateng kesini ? hdehh, i wanna watch them so bad ! yoseob & dongwoon, ulalala ƪ(♥ε♥)ʃ they held a concert in malaysia too. errr, masa indo kaga si ? ahh, pkknya msti ntn lahh klo mereka konser disini. gamau tau, HAHAHA. i'm kinda freak yaa ? whatever ~

i'm feeling weird. is it because i'm always alone all this time ? gw jadi ga terbiasa denger bacotan ny ade gw. hmm, trutama sma yg kecil. it feels like there's a space between the 3 of us. i'm afraid that i won't be their usual sister they ever known, i've changed a lot. is it because of my mood or my personality change over time ? hmm, maybe our surroundings are different. i'm in here & they're in there. we meet only a few months, when holiday come. right now, i'm feeling so bad. what kind a sister i am ? :(

Labels: beast, envy, family, good things, hate, hidden message, hopeless, LOVE ♥, problems, random, sadness, teman" yg tak tersebut

See the future but don't forget the past :)

On Saturday, January 1, 2011 at 2:09 AM Fiction & Fact ♥

3..2..1... duar duar duar HAPPY NEW YEAR !! :)) goodbye 2010 & welcome 2011 ! huahh, jujur tahun 2010 itu ga berasa bget, kyknya wktu berjalan cpet bgt. hmm, many unforgetable memories in 2010. yapp, saking bnyaknya smpe ga bisa gw sebutin disini, hihi. bberapa doang dahh ni :
- to be part of the craziest class, 9c
- meet my super besties in there ardina, metta, cindy, & yovita
- likes some boys
- ngefans berat sama Rio Haryanto, aww !
- meet my "long lost boy childhood friend"
- masa"nya gw bosen idup
- to be part of the "i don't know what to say" class, 10a
- texting & became close with an unexpected person
- make surprise party for friends
- super 7 days christmas trip to HK
- meet that charming boy who wears blue t-shirt & black jacket @ HK airport
- got my first blackberry
& a lot I did in everywhere with everyone :)
hahaha, I ♥ 2010 ! meskipun setahun penuh ini gw single *ukhh tpi gw mnikmati setiap detik yang ada bersama my beloved friends ! yaapp, I don't know what to say again but I want to say "thank you so much God for an unpredictable year, 2010"

well, the last thing I want to say is
HAPPY NEW YEAR
BE BLESSED EVERYONE :)

love: ellielays

♥

Labels: b'day, charming boy ?, Christmas, cindy, dina, gila"an, HAPPY ♥, HK trip, hopeless, Ipee, licia, LOVE ♥, memories for us, metta, random, RH, school, si amnesia, teman" yg tak tersebut, yovita

Mine ♥

On Friday, November 19, 2010 at 7:32 AM Fiction & Fact ♥

You were in college working part time waiting tables
Left a small town, never looked back
I was the flight risk with the fear of fallin'
Wonderin' why we bothered with love if it never lasts

I say "Can you believe it?"
As we're lying on the couch
The moment I can see it
Yes, yes I can see it now

Do you remember we were sittin' there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward and we're taking on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learned my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

But we've got bills to pay
We got nothing figured out
When it was hard to take yes, yes
This is what I thought about

Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

And I remember that fight 2:30 AM
Cause everything was slippin' right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye
Cause that's all I've ever known
And you took me by surprise
You said I'll never leave you alone

You said :
I remember how we felt sittin' by the water
And every time I look at you it's like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
She is the best thing that's ever been mine

Make it last
Hold on
Never turn back

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Yeah, yeah do you believe it?

We're gonna make it now.
And I can see it yeah, yeah
And I can see it now, See it now, See it now

gw demen bgt sama ni lagu. emang yahh, Taylor Swift klo bikin lagu tuh ada artinya semua. gyaaa~ gw juga demen sama music video. hikss, ntar gw gede mau kyk yg di MV' nya ahh. bahagia bgt gtu dari awal ketemu smpe married & bla bla bla. huahahha, kpan yah gw bisa kyk gtu ? wohoo x'(

Labels: LOVE ♥, ngayal, songs, Taylor Swift, video

Vanilla Twilight ♥

On Tuesday, October 19, 2010 at 7:34 AM Fiction & Fact ♥

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy doze of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

ahh, gw baru demen ni lagu baru" ini padahal ini lagu uda lama. ahaii~. meskipun lyric'nya aneh & gw rada ga ngerti tpi ada bberapa yang "ouchh". gyahahhaha. OH DARLING, I WISH YOU WERE HERE !!~ ♥ :DD

Labels: LOVE ♥, Owl City, songs, video

Teardrops On My Guitar :')

On Tuesday, September 28, 2010 at 7:21 AM Fiction & Fact ♥

Drew looks at me

I fake a smile so he won't see

What I want and I need

And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful

That girl he talks about

And she's got everything

That I have to live without

Drew talks to me

I laugh 'cause it's just so funny

I can't even see

Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love

He's finally got it right

I wonder if he knows

He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song in the car I keep singing

Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me

Can he tell that I can't breathe?

And there he goes, so perfectly

The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight

Give him all her love

Look in those beautiful eyes

And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song in the car I keep singing

Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone

As I turn out the light

I'll put his picture down

And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart

He's the song in the car I keep singing

Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough

And he's all that I need to fall into

Drew looks at me

I fake a smile so he won't see

ahhh, ni lagu artinya dalem bgt. gw uda tau ni lagu dari lama tpi baru skrang klik sama gw. hahha :')

Labels: LOVE ♥, sadness, songs, Taylor Swift